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"They say first love is the sweetest, but that first cute is the deepest"

November 1, 2013
By KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."


Have you ever felt like Cinderella? Where everything was hard until he came along? And you thought he makes the world better? Oh, well, I have. He was the one I would wake up and think about. He was the one whose voice was the last heard before i went to sleep. See the thing about us girls is... well... we get feelings too quick. Get caught up. Float high until we can no longer see the ground. But long and behold, he is twenty feet below us, waiting nothing the same, feeling totally different. He looks happy, right? Like nothing could be better or like you’re all he needs? Well once again, I thought this. I thought it was I who made him feel like no other, helped through bad times and was the only one he cared for. But of course... I was wrong.

When every breath you take is for him, and every step you take is one for your future together you start losing the ability to think. You trust him like he trusts you. When he’s the only one you can see, the only one you can feel... and you..? Not as important as you think.

He holds you, and whispers in your ear how important you are and how much he loves you. And you continue to try and try and try to make everything stay in place and you look over little red flags , obvious to everyone else; but you know he is the one.

Okay so you caught him cheating.... what now? You won’t take him back even though he is the biggest part of you? Nope. You take him back. You feel as though it was once and it won’t happen again. He then continues to feed you lies and of course you believe him.


“Once a cheater, always a cheater.” Yeah right, I Laughed. “He learned his lesson.” or so i thought. Finding out he’s with someone else again. Then you begin to question yourself as if it is your fault. What am I doing wrong? Why am I not good enough? I give him everything. I loved him more than someone can love. But still, I am not good enough.

Looking back, you begin to see those little red flags and how night could never turn into day with him. You see the lies and tricks that you never acted on. You feel defeated but no more can be done. When you’re left with nothing, and nothing is everything, where really can you turn? Still a little hope, but nothing gets better.

You still get jealous when you see his new girl. You still get butterflies when he passes you. You still cry when your song comes on. But you are new girl. With stitched up scars. Who isn’t afraid of anything anymore because everything has already happened. We wish for the best and still have to continue on.



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on Nov. 9 2013 at 9:15 pm
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Awwwwe thank you soo much. I'm very glad you liked it. :)))

on Nov. 9 2013 at 9:24 am
Wannabevamp2296 BRONZE, Summerville, Georgia
4 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
Kiss my Country REDNECK a**

Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it.
Your face isn't a mask, don't cover it.
Your size isn't a book, don't judge it.
Your life isn't a film, don't end it.

I found your story to be inspiring. It keeps me on the edge of my seat waiting to know what will happen and so many people can relate. It's really good. Don't stop there. Keep writing new stories.

on Nov. 8 2013 at 7:01 pm
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Thank you ! This really means alot to me !

on Nov. 8 2013 at 5:19 am
Ray--yo PLATINUM, Kathmandu, Other
43 articles 2 photos 581 comments

Favorite Quote:
God Makes No Mistakes. (Gaga?)
"I have hated the words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right." -Liesel Meminger via Markus Zusac, "The Book Thief"

Well, a lil girly! But I actually read it all and you maintained a good flow and communication throught the work, which I die to do all the time!! Wish I could write as well as you do. Great work!

on Nov. 7 2013 at 4:39 pm
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Lol thanks. Glad i could do that. :)))

on Nov. 7 2013 at 9:45 am
KingForADay97 SILVER, Waco, Texas
5 articles 1 photo 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
~Friedrich Nietzsche

**Having**

on Nov. 7 2013 at 9:45 am
KingForADay97 SILVER, Waco, Texas
5 articles 1 photo 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
~Friedrich Nietzsche

Normally i would say that it's girly but nice job ^-^ i was just haing some teribbly dark thought so thank you for distracting me

on Nov. 5 2013 at 11:10 am
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Thank you for the support :)) <3333

on Nov. 5 2013 at 11:07 am
Fallen_ PLATINUM, Quakertown, Pennsylvania
25 articles 3 photos 436 comments

Favorite Quote:
" a shattered world is only an opening into a new beginning with laughs, smiles, and love all around enter the world of the light and away from the broken darkness"

Really relatable kayla. and really good word choice.  Keep it up gurly :3

on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:52 am
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Thank you so much!

on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:46 am
xxMedievalShadexx GOLD, Deerfield Beach, Florida
17 articles 0 photos 31 comments

Favorite Quote:
Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable. -Bruce Lee

I've been through this pain before. I can relate. I like the word choice. I makes it seem as if you are speaking directly to me. Good job.

on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:28 am
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Yeah its sad. and thank you very much :)

on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:27 am
compassion GOLD, Nowhere, Other
12 articles 17 photos 154 comments

Favorite Quote:
Expect to have hope rekindled,expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways! The dry seasons in life do not last,the spring rains will come again.

This is the bitter fact that many girls go through. I like your positive attitude. Nice job.

on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:26 am
KaylaaLovee GOLD, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14 articles 1 photo 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, I'm already better than them."

Aweeee thank you :) that means alot :)

Zoya_Khan GOLD said...
on Nov. 5 2013 at 9:25 am
Zoya_Khan GOLD, Gujranwala, Other
19 articles 0 photos 420 comments

Favorite Quote:
Where LOGIC ends, FAITH begins.
- Zoya Khan

It seems like some really, really unlucky guy ditched you. Believe me, you're gonna find someone way better than him :) :) :)