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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.





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123456789 said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 9:36 am:
this suckz
 
jillianatthedisco replied...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 2:02 pm :

Are you REALLY insulting this?

I'd like to see you try and come up with something as well-written and breathtaking as this.

And if you DO feel the need to say something negative in the future, don't.

 
summerqdp replied...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 10:31 am :
ahahahaa this person is just trying to get people mad. Ignore it. aha
 
fragileblackorchid replied...
Jan. 17, 2011 at 7:37 pm :
this dude replyed on my work too, lolz ignore him, its actually quite amusing
 
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xcrunner4life said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 9:30 am:
I almost always forget how bad some people have it out in the world and this peom really reminded me. If this story is true i am soo sorry for you and your sister. I know from my own exprence it can be very hard when you are so mad at the person you always turn to . You feel so alone and just want to talk to someone about it but thereis no one there. I hope you and your sister deal witht this hard time well and i hope eveything turns out ok.
 
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_Snow_ said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 7:10 am:
I finally understand what this is about! I accidentally read my sister's diary the other day. I thought she was using one of my old notebooks (that I tore the pages I used out of) as a story book or something, and she was showing me a little stupid story that I wrote when I was little and I looked at the other page and read like one sentence and then realized that my sister was venting about what our mom said to her.... she is as emotional as I am, and she's only 7, and I'm very, very emotional,... (more »)
 
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DaydreamBeliever This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 6:45 am:

aw :(

really really good :)

 
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annexgrey This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 6:27 am:
Simply stunning. 
 
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TuffGurl said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 5:51 am:
I have the feeling the other person is her brother, so bear with me: what is wrong with him? does he have depression?
 
TuffGurl replied...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 5:52 am :
p.s.: really liked the poem (the writing was really good).
 
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jeanwolf said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 4:17 am:

very good!!! loved it!!

look at some of my work plez!!

 
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SaMiLoVe97 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 25, 2010 at 4:27 pm:

Great imagery. I loved this. Kepp writin'(:

                               <3 sami

 
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Gothgirl said...
Sept. 14, 2010 at 6:59 pm:
Wow. That is deep.
 
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Marlyre This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 12, 2010 at 4:13 pm:
the acceleration in this piece was incredible... read some of mine?
 
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maggiebar1 said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 8:14 pm:
wow this was really good... your imagery was amazing. could you comment on some of my stuff? id really love advice! :)
 
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WaterGirl23 said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 5:10 pm:
love this! i can feel the emotion easily. could you please rate and comment some of my work? thanks!
 
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Hummingbird This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 4:22 pm:
Absolutely stunning. I don't know how else to say it. I can feel the emotion, the deepness, the darkness, the sadness. You have a gift.
 
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mimirocks124 said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 3:10 pm:
wow...i am jst blown away from the raw emotion put into this. incredible job. 5 stars
 
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pinkypromise23 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 2:51 pm:
i had to read it a couple times to understand it...but it was really good(: 5 stars(:
 
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llamachick said...
Sept. 7, 2010 at 1:42 pm:
its very touching,i have a younger sis so i will have to watch out for that!
 
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