Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

January 28, 2009
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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R.S.H said...
Nov. 19, 2011 at 9:11 pm
Very well expressed. I love the emotions you brought to this poem.
alejandraanabel said...
Oct. 30, 2011 at 3:59 pm
this poem is amazing. you are such a good poet.
Lady-Milano said...
Oct. 27, 2011 at 5:20 pm
simply amazing
Lexie96 said...
Oct. 24, 2011 at 6:49 am
Those last couple of lines are simply haunting, brilliant, but haunting. Great job, think you could check out my poem sometime? Please?
Kristi184 said...
Oct. 10, 2011 at 3:48 pm
that was awsome thats all i can think of it was just great all around!
Lola_Black said...
Oct. 8, 2011 at 5:39 pm
Wow. That was sweet! Seriously; it's so good that's all I can come up with to say
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Oct. 8, 2011 at 5:13 pm

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aimaginater said...
Oct. 8, 2011 at 5:11 pm
This is awesome! I love it when writing has emotion like this.
Emin3mAC said...
Oct. 8, 2011 at 3:17 pm
Wonderful.  Your VERY Talented((:
carolina said...
Sept. 16, 2011 at 2:38 pm
Amazing!!! :)
17 Guadalupe said...
Sept. 16, 2011 at 2:36 pm
I like this story its nice
nella.7 said...
Sept. 16, 2011 at 2:36 pm
It's really amazing, love your job... :)
emora94 said...
Sept. 16, 2011 at 2:24 pm
Wow! It is funny.
WeAllBurn said...
Sept. 16, 2011 at 1:18 pm


honestly all i can say is, wow.

amazing. <3

athousandwords said...
Sept. 12, 2011 at 4:09 pm
Amazing. Simply amazing
-daydreamer- said...
Aug. 25, 2011 at 8:30 pm
I really love this! Not only is it beautiful, but I can relate. Incredible job!
chloebear said...
Aug. 25, 2011 at 11:31 am
this is really brilliant, the only feedback I have for you is that the bit about the monster and the crying confused me. Overall great job! and if anyone has time, please check out my poems!
bamboom212 said...
Aug. 25, 2011 at 10:38 am
WOW. this is amazing. i really cant come up with anything better im sorry lol, but you are very gifted!
WhoWillCareIfEveryoneDied said...
Aug. 25, 2011 at 8:39 am
Beautiful. i have work on here i would really appreciate it if you guys can check it out and tell me what you think. Thanks :)
cookiegirl said...
Aug. 25, 2011 at 4:52 am
Wow. That was amazing and orginal:)
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