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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

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on Feb. 21 2010 at 2:50 pm
Dandelion PLATINUM, Franklin, Massachusetts
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on Feb. 21 2010 at 10:08 am
betwixt_11 GOLD, Pembroke, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
The privilege of absurdity; to which no living creature is subject, but man only. ~Thomas Hobbes

This is amazing! Keep up the good work :)

on Feb. 21 2010 at 8:34 am
krisssss PLATINUM, Nyack, New York
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Your poem is amazing.

It really leves the reader mysterious and wanting more, which is always a great thing when writing.

Keep it up :)

SusieQ BRONZE said...
on Feb. 21 2010 at 12:49 am
SusieQ BRONZE, Phoenix, Arizona
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woow amazing i really liked it

on Feb. 20 2010 at 8:17 pm
JustBeingME SILVER, New Bedford, Massachusetts
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This is AWESOME.

on Feb. 18 2010 at 12:03 pm
chickychickita1996 BRONZE, West St Paul, Minnesota
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wow this poem is absolutely amazing! i can totally relate! keep it up! : )

on Feb. 1 2010 at 8:07 pm
dancewritedream SILVER, S. Dartmouth, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"Masquerading as a normal person day after day is exhausting."

im with marissa.....hit me hard. like near tears hard. wonderfully done.

Rayanne SILVER said...
on Jan. 30 2010 at 8:18 pm
Rayanne SILVER, Ely, Nevada
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Favorite Quote:
'Careful Wat you wish for' And "Things may not always be what they seem'

Oh and by the way, i gave it a five star rating, and taged it as a fav. Keep up the good work!!!

Rayanne SILVER said...
on Jan. 30 2010 at 8:16 pm
Rayanne SILVER, Ely, Nevada
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Favorite Quote:
'Careful Wat you wish for' And "Things may not always be what they seem'

Wow, you really made me want to keep reading, i loved it, keep up the good work... and by the way, how long does it take to get your post thingy read by the people that do that, you know what i mean right. But anyway, i ment what i said, i loved it, and will look for it in the mag!

Lady! said...
on Jan. 30 2010 at 5:53 pm
Lady!, Fonda, New York
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Very deep in like it! Good work, keep it up.

on Jan. 30 2010 at 4:49 pm
brysmarie12 PLATINUM, Neoga, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
I am the author of my own life... unfortunately I'm writing in pen and can't erase my mistakes.

This is really good! :) Keep up the good work! Oh and I have a question, how long does it usually take for them to approve your work when you submit it?

on Jan. 30 2010 at 9:52 am
Baby_kay24 BRONZE, IU, Alaska
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Favorite Quote:
" Your freinds will give you GREAT advice on what to do, your family will be there for you and tell you whats right....but NOBODY but YOU can tell you how to live your life....LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE YOU WANT TO!!!!! =D"

this peice was really good.. keep writing maybe one day we will see your work in a book in the store

brittneyh. said...
on Jan. 30 2010 at 9:13 am
This was so beatiful! Read my poetry if you can!! :)

on Jan. 26 2010 at 9:07 pm
B.R.Nack SILVER, Grand Junction, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
“...Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.”
--Stephen King

wow this was really good, i read it a few times even^^you are a really good writer keep it up!

on Jan. 8 2010 at 8:35 am
mz.gemini92 BRONZE, Tomball, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
keep the one yew luv most 1st

i really like this poem it shows your creative side......

kedsberry!! said...
on Jan. 8 2010 at 12:28 am
you poured heart into it...i liked it!!

on Jan. 5 2010 at 8:04 pm
waiting... SILVER, Harvard, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
The most beautiful discovery that true friends make - is that they can grow separately without growing apart

I love it so much, ive made it my favorite. You are an amazing writer!

on Dec. 17 2009 at 7:54 pm
beautifulworld SILVER, Memphis, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
What's the point i wearing my favorite rocket ship underpants if no one asks to see them? -Calvin and Hobbes

so discriptive, i loved it

on Dec. 17 2009 at 5:08 pm
Kouragious_Beauty_ BRONZE, Katy, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Did my heart love till now? Forswear it sight, For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night {Romeo & Juliet}

that was so emotionaland very feelingful it tells a lot for a short description i loved it i can see where you are coming from nice very beautiful what you wrote is a reflection of your personality very beautiful and emotional in a good sense i loved this good job<3

on Dec. 17 2009 at 4:37 pm
Rain-Bow BRONZE, Mecca, California
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Favorite Quote:
"You have to get through the worst part, to finally get to the best part"

This is really good. I read it and it actually felt like i was there. Very good descriptions. They bring life to the story...