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And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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ashleysbff said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 5:44 pm:
wow.thats all i can say.i can sorta feel ur pain b/c i was adopted by my aunt when i was 2 and rarely get to see my mother.u r an amazing writer and i hope u go far with writing in life.
 
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ninjaaboo said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 5:38 pm:
This really gave me a good idea of what it's like to not have a mother. Your poem is very powerfull and really made me realize I take advantage of having a mom.
 
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Agatha25 said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 4:51 pm:
For this poem to get accros it's message properly is very hard, you have nailed this comletely. It is a very good poem. My brother died 2 years ago so I was used to him being around I felt crushed when I found out. I understand your sadness xxxx
 
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oliviarose said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 3:56 pm:
This was very good, it was really powerful and sad but very well written too. Great job.
 
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Internallybeautiful said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 1:22 pm:
i really liked this it gave me a ense of what it must feel like not to have a mother.Great Job
 
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fantasyfreak294 said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 11:28 am:
simply amazing. that last line and its poignant tone left me absolutely speechless.
 
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HannahM This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 11:02 am:
Wow. So sad, but very good.
 
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CuteCourt101 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 9:12 am:
Wow! It left me speechless. I Love it!
 
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Emely J. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jan. 9, 2010 at 8:46 am:
Amazing!!! Your words are music to my ears!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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waiting... said...
Jan. 4, 2010 at 8:22 pm:
awesome!...
 
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Phoenix B. said...
Jan. 2, 2010 at 6:18 am:
I love it. It has so many emotions.
 
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LostAngel said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 7:53 pm:
This poem has brought me to tears. I love it though!
 
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Ridelova101 said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 6:30 pm:
This poem was beautiful and full of emotions. I could see it. I could see the picture painted in my head. I loved it.
 
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LeilaniLivesThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 5:25 pm:
You are beautiful. Inside, you are filled with raw emotion and talent. Never stop writing. Thank you for writing this.
 
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Duckie430This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 12:19 pm:
this is so beautiful & emotional & real, your emotions really come across in the poem.
 
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Colorful4u This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 11:56 am:
This was an amazing poem. I felt all the emotions.
 
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seabee11 said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 11:32 am:
That was truly beautiful. I remember when my mom died. Now, I tell teens just like me to be grateful for their mothers even when they make them mad because they don't know what it feels like to not have one.
 
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peace_love_beauty said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 11:31 am:
Beautiful poem. I myself have not known what it is like to live without my mother, I could not even begin to imagine life right now without either of my parents. Great poem, keep writing. :)
 
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jahlieca said...
Dec. 18, 2009 at 9:28 am:
this is truly beautiful& sad. i don't know how it feels to not live with a mother but am dealing with the fact of helping my boyfriend through tough time because of the fact his dad died a week ago.
 
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sasssgirrrl22 said...
Dec. 17, 2009 at 5:15 pm:
wow. truly beautiful. sad, but very powerful
 
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