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December 17, 2008
By AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks


And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.



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AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 3:00 pm
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

i would like to apologize as well, rereading now [after much needed sleep] my choice of words made me come off as angry... or hurt... hmm and having you explain your comment, i wonder along side you now. my deepest of words stem from my deepest pains. the passing of my mother, my best friends self mutilation. when i was younger i loved to read. words were always my biggest escape, i dont think my writing would have peeked though if she were still here... i guess thats where the whole... everything happends for a reason comes into play. my mother passes and i am gifted with words. my best friend hurts and i'm off to study child/teen councling/psychology. its odd to say now though, im thankful for my pains as much as i really [really] could have done without them. lol and thank you, for taking the time to explain your comment, i deeply appriciate that.

on Apr. 13 2010 at 1:16 am
chrisbriones GOLD, Anaheim, California
11 articles 0 photos 83 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I believe nothing can be justly and completely explained by words."

And, if i may say in utmost respect, what slayergrape said is, in turn, rediculous as well. Flowery words and complicated constructions are not the basis of poetry. It is indeed the impact of the story or message or feeling expressed. It's all about expression, not fancy words. No one can hope to call him/herself a true writer should he be arrogant enough as to believe such fallacies. It's what our words and constructions (no matter what choice) convey.

on Apr. 13 2010 at 1:10 am
chrisbriones GOLD, Anaheim, California
11 articles 0 photos 83 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I believe nothing can be justly and completely explained by words."

Please forgive my distasteful choice of words. I had no intention of creating a negative connatation, on the contrary, i meant to appraise you. I meant to acclaim your experience, your life as it has been lived so far, as the ultimate inspiration for expression. It is beautiful what you've done. And to further explain myself, i merely wished to wonder just how you would presently write should you of had the blessing of growing up with your mother all your life. I'm simply curious to know if you'd be just as talented (in this specific manner), if not more. Once again, please forgive me for my unintentional derision.

AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 12:47 am
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

Hey! Just want to thankEVERYONE for their amazing thoughts and opinions. It's hard to read some of these comments. They break me, i never expected so many people to bother to read this let alone touch anyone... thanks again! &keep writing!

AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 12:44 am
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

perhaps it is just me, but I fail to see exacly what you're trying to tell me. Are you trying to make me question what i do and love because you yourself fail to see why i wonder the things of my mother. As infants we do not learn what our parents will think of us when we are older... I consider myself a true writer yes. I can take critisism like this and turn it into a work of art. The ignorance of some is the bliss of others. thank you for your time =]

kandybaby said...
on Apr. 12 2010 at 1:13 pm
I really loved this poem.  you got the real emotionof how some people like this might feel.  Trust me i'd know

slayergrape said...
on Apr. 10 2010 at 3:40 pm
chrisbriones comment is ridiculous, writing isn't just about the story or message, its about the construction and the words, so ya thats kinda wrong o_0

StarChasing said...
on Apr. 7 2010 at 9:29 pm
No... I just reread that and realized how it comes across. Sorry, no pun intended. I didn't mean it like that!! It's a great poem, very well done.

on Apr. 7 2010 at 8:37 pm
chrisbriones GOLD, Anaheim, California
11 articles 0 photos 83 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I believe nothing can be justly and completely explained by words."

Is it wrong to wonder that if you knew your mother since birth, would you still deserve the title of a true writer?

on Apr. 7 2010 at 8:36 pm
westwardcircle BRONZE, East Falmouth, Massachusetts
4 articles 0 photos 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I like clothes because they make me not naked."

I don't cry, not at all, but the raw emotion in this poem got me to tear up. It is excellently written. Good job.

on Apr. 7 2010 at 8:11 pm
shelterisland GOLD, Montclair, New Jersey
14 articles 0 photos 175 comments

Favorite Quote:
-Biting's excellent. It's like kissing only there's a winner."-Doctor Who, The Tardis

wow, that was an amazing poem! lots of emotion

Wordgasm GOLD said...
on Apr. 7 2010 at 7:39 pm
Wordgasm GOLD, Kingfield, Maine
12 articles 0 photos 45 comments

Favorite Quote:
If it was a unicorn it would have gored you.

this is one of the most amazing poems i have ever read. I am very lucky in that my parents are alive and together, and ive never lost anyone close to me. yet this poem really made me feel for you, and lke i was u. thank you so much for making the wolrd a  better place with your writing! :D

Wordgasm GOLD said...
on Apr. 7 2010 at 7:36 pm
Wordgasm GOLD, Kingfield, Maine
12 articles 0 photos 45 comments

Favorite Quote:
If it was a unicorn it would have gored you.

was the pun intentional?

on Apr. 7 2010 at 6:57 pm
bullet.with.butterfly.wings PLATINUM, Katy, Texas
36 articles 0 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
you wear guilt like shakles on your feet, like a maiden in distres, like a halo in reverse

the stuffing macine part, left me in tears...from this paper i can see that she would be proud of you...keep your head up, very strong writng

toflyaway said...
on Apr. 7 2010 at 6:55 pm
toflyaway, Melbourne, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"You're Bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret, all the best people are" -Alice In Wonderland (2010)

This is beautiful, tears were on the verge of pouring out :)

on Apr. 7 2010 at 2:16 pm
kelsey95 BRONZE, Naples, Florida
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This was beautiful! I loved it, it was very descriptive!:)

on Apr. 7 2010 at 1:33 pm
StarlingChild PLATINUM, El Cajon, California
23 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It is courage to continue that counts." - Winston Churchill

Beautiful, powertfully written, I felt that this written from the heart not from the imagination. A job wel done! =)

on Apr. 7 2010 at 1:12 pm
KevinM PLATINUM, Xxxxx, Arkansas
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O MY GOSH I LOVE IT ( I LOVE THE PART WOULD SHE APPROVE OF ME IF SHE'D EVER APPROVE OF ME THE THINGS IVE SEEN THE THINGS IVE DONE ) IT IS REALLY AMAZING KEEP WRIGHTING

Eilatan GOLD said...
on Apr. 7 2010 at 6:09 am
Eilatan GOLD, Old Greenwich, Connecticut
11 articles 1 photo 307 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Nobody is normal. Everybody in the world is a weirdo freak. Except you, which makes you a weirdo freak."

It's so sad...

may peace envelop your soul, my friend.


on Apr. 6 2010 at 12:14 pm
apurplechick BRONZE, North Little Rock, Arkansas
3 articles 0 photos 16 comments

Favorite Quote:
"love all hate few trust none" by william shakespear

this is amazing totally beautiful