If I said that I loved you
With all of my heart
And I heard you say that
You do not feel the same
Or even worse
See the pained look on your face
And read the rejection
Go across your features
I do not know how I could survive
It is not really the fear of the words
That keeps me from saying them
I don’t want to be rejected again
You mean too much to me
For me to tell you
No matter what
Even if I move on
Even if I fall in love again
You will mean
A lot to me
Always have
And I don’t want to think about
You leaving
I will probably cry either way
If I don’t tell you
It’ll be regret
If I do
I don’t have a chance
No way that you will ever see
Even though I feel that it is so clear
To me
To everyone but you
That I absolutely adore you
That I cannot even say your name
Without the world
Turning blue and
Heat rising to my cheeks
I know that you don’t see me
Here but I see you
I know that you
Don’t ever seem to slow down
Enough to notice me
Looking at you
Or to see me as
Anything other than
A kid
But I can’t help but preen
When you touch me
On the arm
Even just
Accidentally `