Cope MAG

December 28, 2007
By Alison G., Kensington, CA, Kensington, CA

don’t worry
I’m not going to call you and cry anymore
listening to the sounds of your resistance
until my optimism and desperation run dry
leaving me facing four blank walls of hopelessness.

I am forced to watch the world opening up before your hungry eyes.

stop hiding
you won’t find me on your doorstep
with tears in my eyes and a blubbering mouth
so spell out your contradictions again
maybe this time I’ll understand
you want me but you don’t
you need me but you can’t
you miss me but sometimes you forget to.

Your shaky voice, bursting with grief and regret, forces me to wait for something that will never come back.

You.

stop talking
you’ve made your opinions clear
and the realization that there is
nothing
I can do
leaves me cold and caged.
I pace around my mind
looking for alternatives
and find only two:
break down
or
break up
fight for it or let it go
because you won’t fight for me anymore
and my dignity is ticking away
the time bomb that keeps
my fingers from the telephone
and my feet from following the well-worn path
to your house.
I feel cold and alone and small
you detach yourself through your unawareness.

I call you
craving closure
and you force hope into my exhausted mind
and between my clenched fists
then walk away without looking back.
What am I supposed to do with it?
I am locked in place
unable to disconnect
stuck in your waver between rejection and dedication
trapped in your hesitation at forever

My heart is caught between beat and break.



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HadassahJ GOLD said...
on Apr. 12 2014 at 9:08 pm
HadassahJ GOLD, Far Rockaway, New York
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Favorite Quote:
“Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.”

― Neil Gaiman

Love this! Beautiful writing and great rhythm

on Mar. 28 2011 at 8:08 pm
Marlyre PLATINUM, Kalamazoo, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"when you cry, do you waste your tears?" Madonna

this too well snapshots my life right now... well done. read some of mine?

Flouter GOLD said...
on Nov. 27 2010 at 12:23 am
Flouter GOLD, Chicago, Illinois
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I feel like I can really relate. Great work! Please keep writing!

on Oct. 14 2010 at 11:02 am
mandielynnrose GOLD, Tucson, Arizona
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Favorite Quote:
"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

I LOVE THIS POEM, ITS FITS ME SOO WELL. KEEP WRITING!! :)

on Apr. 30 2010 at 3:48 pm
This poem shows how you should treasure what you have when you have it. It touches my heart and all I want to say is Christina I love you. 

on Dec. 10 2009 at 8:29 am
beautifully written :)

on Oct. 3 2009 at 2:03 pm
s.nichole. PLATINUM, Ossian, Indiana
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The first time I saw this, it was published.

I didnt stop from my stupid schedule to rad it.

Today, I found myself really really looking for it.

It's a truly amazing piece of art.

and it changed my life.

(:

on Jul. 21 2009 at 4:15 pm
jay_jayy:D GOLD, Trussville, Alabama
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I can totally relate, and I think alot of others can too. GREAT POEM. Keep writing!

on Jun. 3 2009 at 3:53 am
Angels1031 BRONZE, Fort Worth, Texas
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This poem was great. I felt like it related to me so much that I was tearing up. I really liked this poem and I hope u continue to write more like this.

on May. 21 2009 at 1:21 am
this poem is deep

i really wouldn`t know what to say it`s like ur telling me how u feel but in away u cover it with so many wonderful feelings.....

I am totally speech less

Claire said...
on Apr. 20 2009 at 3:22 am
"My heart is caught between beat and break."



Unbelievably beautiful. Words canot express what this poem means to me!

on Mar. 12 2009 at 11:43 pm
Ashley Wheeler, Naples, Florida
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one of the best ever!!!!! GREAT JOB! You have some real talent!

tweedle dee said...
on Feb. 24 2009 at 12:54 am
loved it loved it loved it! great job!

xjustlistenx said...
on Feb. 19 2009 at 10:18 pm
beautifully written i loved it!!

ireadiwrite said...
on Feb. 10 2009 at 3:16 am
this poem is a great portrayal of how many people feel. you get the feeling that it was written as an actual way of coping with something going on in your life. i can currently relate to this- thank you for writing this poem when i couldnt.

jessica said...
on Feb. 9 2009 at 10:39 am
i thought it was really good.




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