Living with Autism

June 4, 2008
By Marina Orde, Dundas, ZZ

I'm not normal.
I don't understand if someone speaks to me.
I can hear their lips moving,
I can see sound,
Piecing the two together is impossible.

I have a world.
A place inside my head, one only I can see.
It's beautiful, this world of mine.
I spend my days here.
I can do anything, anywhere, anytime.

I'm not trapped.
I am not stuck inside my mind, inside my world.
I just chose it over yours.
It is much simpler.
And also much more complex.

I could come out.
I believe I could join you, I could understand.
I don't want to, I don't need to.
It's too complicated.
There is no pretending here, just being.

Your mind is a maze.
Twisting, turning, and changing.
It's never the same twice,
You are never the same twice.
I forever stay the same.

They think I'm stupid.
Are being stupid, and different the same thing?
Sometimes I think they are right,
Then I see,
If they truly believe that, the roles should be reversed.

Reality hurts,
But I have my parents, my friends.
I love them,
They see through my disability to the person,
The one in the bubble.

They never give up on me.
I listen to them talking to doctors,
The doctors say horrible things,
They don't speak of me as a child,
But as a disease.

I'm not lost.
If you believe in me, I can be found.
When my parents speak to me,
They don't speak to me as a thing,
But as their child.
Their child living with autism.

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This article has 5 comments.

on Jun. 19 2014 at 7:01 pm
bella-nielsen GOLD, Marshall, Minnesota
13 articles 27 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
"autism isn't contagious, but a smile is and that's what im afraid of."-grumpy cat

i wrote an article on autism. this piece really opens up my feelings.

on Oct. 29 2011 at 4:09 pm
LucyLoodles BRONZE, Taunton, Other
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Favorite Quote:
\\\\\\\"Can self deprecate till the cows come home and happily ridicule her own silliness. As long as others can see that her particularly understated brand of inverted intelligence is stylisticly above those she is conversing with.\\\\\\\"

This is beautiful :) 

BluBliss GOLD said...
on Oct. 25 2011 at 8:33 pm
BluBliss GOLD, New York, New York
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Favorite Quote:
Bella's love for Edward was like, "Omg. He's hot. He's mine because he sparkles. Now I'll brood the wholle book while I'm with him."

It's so true. Autism hurts alot of people. But that doesn't mean it's entirely evil.... This is graet.

Miro said...
on Aug. 13 2008 at 9:53 pm
Beutiful ideas, moving, we have tears comming... M.

Dedo said...
on Aug. 13 2008 at 5:43 pm
Beutiful, moving, touching. My granddaughter's name is Linda


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