i cut.

December 22, 2010
By Anonymous

i never meant to hurt anyone. i didn’t do this to scare people. i did it to help me deal with what was going on inside me.

i never cut deep enough to break the skin. they were always scratches. sometimes they almost broke the skin but they never actually bled. but when i found out that my best friend was cutting i couldn't say that anymore. i cut my wrists three times; and bled. the point of cutting for me was never to die, it was always to help myself stop thinking about what was hurting my heart and to make my brain think about what was hurting my body. so once i started to bleed, i got scared. i cleaned the cuts and put pressure on them to make them stop bleeding. i wrapped my arms up in gauze and went to bed. i thought about what i had done. i didn't feel bad. i didn't feel scared. i felt good. i knew i wanted to help my friend, but i also knew cutting wasn't going to help her. i talked to her and she was scared for me. she told me that she couldn't just tell me to stop because that's just not how it works. you don't just stop cutting. she asked me not to cut my wrists, but if i needed to cut, to do it somewhere else on my body, somewhere less dangerous. i listened to her. i didn't want to kill myself and i always knew the risks of cutting my wrists. but i had been cutting for a year and a half, i thought i knew what i was doing. but when you're as upset and angry as i was, you don't have sense. you don't know what's going on; you just do it.

cutting is a scary thing. but it's something i feel i have to do. i'm not looking for sympathy, i'm looking to get my story out there for other people who cut to let them know that they're not alone. i don't cut my wrists anymore, i cut on my hip. and it's NOT a joke. cutting and self-harm is NEVER a joke.


The author's comments:
if you cut, you're not alone. cutting is a scary thing and some people don't know why they do. talk to someone. anyone. get help because whatever causes you to cut, it can't be worth killing yourself. you are an important person and there are people who love you.
*muchlove*<3

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deathnote said...
on Sep. 9 2011 at 9:45 am
if  u think its wrong dont comment just go away i used to cut and u no what i still want to but my parents took me to a mental hospital so u no what maybe theres something wrong with the people who cut but atleast there crazy togetether and dont judge based on what the see on the outside

on Aug. 8 2011 at 4:28 pm
secrets_of_silence GOLD, Gisborne, Other
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Favorite Quote:
life had i loved the more
had it but passed away
as quietly as the day
ebbs from the darkening star.


-emanuel litvinoff

its true. hips and legs .

Monky nut said...
on Jan. 4 2011 at 3:33 pm
Thats Just Sad.


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