Stop I yell in my head I can't make myself move I can't make myself self say those words. I don't know what wrong with me. I don't love you I don't need you in my life. Yet I can't stop thinking about you I can't stop remembering the way you make me feel the way you know me. I don't know what to do with you and when something happens, I don't stop it I don't run away. Yet I know its right I know that's what I should do. But with you I'm different I'm not me and I can't run away from that feeling I can't escape my need for not your voice or your thoughts but for your hands and your mouth. That's what scares me more than anything at all. More than falling in love with you, or running out of things to say, more then you yourself.
Stop, I don't love you.
October 11, 2009