You and I
Author's note: Dedication J., I see your eyes everywhere I go, a pair of startling stars blinking... Show full author's note »
Prologue: RememberI cannot imagine a world in which you don’t exist. Neither can I fathom why I am so completely helpless now when just a mere year before I would have brushed past you without a second thought, let alone the decency to glance into your eyes. I wouldn’t have spared a heartbeat to try to understand your pains, sorrows, and dreams. At that point, I was unconcerned with those I didn’t know, and much less intrigued by what I chose not to comprehend. My mind had demanded that I look away, turn my back on you, while my heart shivered beneath the shadow of who I’d become, instead of whom I wished to be.
Losing you is like a bullet throbbing in my chest–a lightning bolt of pain–that bears a hole within my soul. I feel like a place within me will be left behind, like a forgotten breath lost to the wind to be carried unto an unseen land. Unshed tears spill out behind closed lids as a silent sob racks my body because I can no longer protect you. My eyes still search for yours across the chasm the world has placed between you and me.
I remember the smile that had come so naturally, and the warmth in my heart; these feelings were so easy to hold with you near. Now it’s as though I never felt at all, like it was all some distant dream or ancient story that my heart recalls but my mind has forgotten. Often, I wonder if I shall lose it all, not knowing what was fact and fiction, forgetting who had changed my life forever. This is our story; these words are about you and me.