If You Don’t Want My Friendship

By , Riverside, RI
if you don’t want my friendship,
well, then i guess i’ll just
leave.

if you don’t want me here,
i won’t apologize and i won’t hurt and i won’t
grieve.

if you want to take back
all the times we’ve shared over the
years,

then i won’t waste my time on
sadness and feeling sorry and i won’t shed any
tears.

if you want to throw away
all the memories and let us just
die,

then i will not hold onto nothing;
believing i can fix what is irrevocably broken and i will not
cry.

i won’t let myself live with
beliefs that i did all the
wrong;

i won’t blame myself senselessly
and let you off for what you’ve done all
along.

if you say this is the end;
you want to leave my life and just walk
away;

then i won’t chase after you;
i won’t try to make you
stay.

if you want to let us go,
i swear i don’t care and i’ll let you out and lock the
door;

if you don’t want to be
a part of my life
anymore.

if you think you can be
here at your convenience; only a sometimes
friend;

i won’t put up with that nonsense,
or the all the secrets, lies, fakeness, drama, and
pretend.

if you thought you could
destroy everything and break us
apart;

if you thought you could leave me
with a ruined and torn and destroyed
heart;

if you want to leave me alone;
reject, abandon, and disappoint me and leave me broken but
alive;

then you thought you’d
get to me but i’m a survivor so i will
survive.

if you refuse to be here for me;
if you were made to never give, just
take;

then i’ll just walk away and pick myself up
from the destruction left in your
wake.

if you don’t want my friendship.





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Rachel23 said...
Feb. 10, 2012 at 12:00 pm
My friend left me... I want to say that I was strong and din't cry but that would be a lie. I did tell her that if she wanted to, that was fine, just don't come back to me. This poem made my heart swell and tear up. I know the feeling described in this poem.
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Feb. 16, 2012 at 10:40 am
Thank you very much. This poem was actually written for my best friend who I've had since I was 6 years old who we just ended our friendship (we're 19). I know what you were feeling when you lost your friend-its like breaking up with a boyfriend...only somehow worse. Just really, really bad. This poem is about how I WISH I could feel; but as I wrote this poem just a few weeks ago when it happened, I'm still grieving over 14 years of friendship lost. This poem is where I want to be. Thank you for... (more »)
 
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