If You Don’t Want My Friendship

if you don’t want my friendship,
well, then i guess i’ll just
leave.

if you don’t want me here,
i won’t apologize and i won’t hurt and i won’t
grieve.

if you want to take back
all the times we’ve shared over the
years,

then i won’t waste my time on
sadness and feeling sorry and i won’t shed any
tears.

if you want to throw away
all the memories and let us just
die,

then i will not hold onto nothing;
believing i can fix what is irrevocably broken and i will not
cry.

i won’t let myself live with
beliefs that i did all the
wrong;

i won’t blame myself senselessly
and let you off for what you’ve done all
along.

if you say this is the end;
you want to leave my life and just walk
away;

then i won’t chase after you;
i won’t try to make you
stay.

if you want to let us go,
i swear i don’t care and i’ll let you out and lock the
door;

if you don’t want to be
a part of my life
anymore.

if you think you can be
here at your convenience; only a sometimes
friend;

i won’t put up with that nonsense,
or the all the secrets, lies, fakeness, drama, and
pretend.

if you thought you could
destroy everything and break us
apart;

if you thought you could leave me
with a ruined and torn and destroyed
heart;

if you want to leave me alone;
reject, abandon, and disappoint me and leave me broken but
alive;

then you thought you’d
get to me but i’m a survivor so i will
survive.

if you refuse to be here for me;
if you were made to never give, just
take;

then i’ll just walk away and pick myself up
from the destruction left in your
wake.

if you don’t want my friendship.