Definition

April 29, 2018
By CatNovelist GOLD, Berkeley, California
CatNovelist GOLD, Berkeley, California
10 articles 1 photo 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you can quit, then quit. If you can't quit, you're a writer."


Lately I’ve been wondering if it’s worth it
I’ve been searching and scanning
and listening to cheesy radio songs on repeat
and shouting my dreams at the sky from the tip of a mountain
so no one can hear me

Defining yourself is not as easy as it seems,
at least that’s what I’ve been telling myself,
to ease the worry lines on my brain,
to comfort my swollen and bruised heart

Handwritten ink notebooks,
and rusty spirals,
are not enough comfort for
fledgling dreams,
and too-quick clocks.

Give it time,
the soft-spoken advisors of the world will whisper,
have fun, be a laugh and a smile and a gift,
not the greasy-haired girl in the background

but is this gutter of a world,
this rotten egg shell of a home,
better than the glittery lights and fake smiles?
Is there a place to belong or must I make mine?
My questions silenced, I put a piece of tape on my mouth,

and breath through my nose,

and smile through it all.


The author's comments:

Often, I feel as if I'm running out of time. This poem is about that. It's also about feeling the urge to define yourself, choose something, before it's too late. I think every teenager can relate to that. Who hasn't wondered about what your future is going to be, or if what your're doing is worth it, even if you're told it'll all be fine?


Similar Articles

JOIN THE DISCUSSION

This article has 0 comments.





Swoon Reads

Aspiring Writer? Take Our Online Course!