The surreal feeling overcame my body,
it reminded me of a time before the sadness,
before my heart fell into an endless,
empty abyss.
The smell of the mid summer air,
the rain falling down in a pattern only nature itself could create.
I got out of the house finally after years of avoiding opening my eyes to a reality,
I would have only created in my nightmares.
It was cold, the wind was so breathtaking,
I had forgotten the feeling of being alive.
I felt for the first time in months my eyes were almost seeing smells,
and ears hearing the colors of the outdoors.

My heart exploded with rejoice remembering moments of great joy,
and all surreal happiness deep inside my heart.
Until the moment struck me,
I remembered something I had forgotten.
I thought about us,
I thought about how it felt being together,
When it was summer and we had a good time with you and my family.
You were part of my life.
I was all of a sudden eight feet under tears,
Along with my worst fear of losing you.
I felt as if I was drowning,
No way to take a breath,
It was all sudden death.