Dear future lover,
I'm going to say sorry in advance
that I'm usually an emotional wreck,
and I'll spend hours in the shower
singing sad songs to myself becuase that's the only place I feel safe.
I'm apologizing that I might be too clingy,
and I'll constantly ask if you really love me,
'cause I'll still be in disbelief that someone could actually love ME.
I'm sorry that sometimes I'll disappear late at night.
Please don't worry.
I just need to take a midnight walk and look up at the stars.
These things calm me.
I apologize that I'll often sound selfish,
I promise I don't do it on purpose,
it's just I've been alone so long that I don't know how to care about much more than myself.
I'm sorry that some nights I'll go to bed
and never want to wake up again,
and I'll throw threats of suicide around
like this is some type of game.
It's times like this when I need your love and support the most.
I apologize if you ever feel like I don't want you
or that our relationship is one-sided,
I promise I love you more than anything,
it's just I'm still trying to get used to this "forever" thing.
I'm sorry for all of this
amd probably much more.
Just know that I'm trying
and that I'll learn how to love and care for more than myself;
I'll do it for you,
you just gotta stick with me and give me the chance.