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My mind vs Me
If I could describe how I'm feeling, it would be like I'm a tourist within my own mind
When it comes time, my tounge reaches down to my stomach and ties them both in knots
The butterflies died 3 months ago
Now it's worse.
It's worse like, I'm a burden to be around
It's worse like noone wants me to be here no more
Its worse like I don't even want to be here no more.
I'm lost in myself and I didn't leave a map behind,
It's always my turn to play life but life outplays me everytime
Skip a turn and miss a beat-
My heart, misses the beat
I can't have too many of those in one round.
It's just games
It's all games... then why aren't I having fun?
Next round, I try not to step on my eyelashes while stepping on eggshells
I need to be awake for this as much as I don't want to be
I'm tired.
I can't really help it
I can't really talk about my emotions like others can
Tears are stored like ice cubes in my heart
I don't want my heart to become a freezer.
Isn't it funny how people act like you feel emotions with your heart like,
Love and lovebreak
But then, in the same rise of their lips tell you it's all in your head?
I avoid adressing my feelings like salt and open wounds,
I put salt, on open wounds just so I can feel what it's like to swallow it
I drink vinegar just so I can feel the bitter taste at the back of my throat
And again, when I throw it up afterwards
The aftertaste could last you all summer
Sometimes, when you feel like noone is fighting in your corner
It's easier to lie down and wait for the count to ten.
Then, peel yourself off the ground like a tired banana peel and stand on rotting limbs
I feel most alive when I'm supposed to be asleep
I was asked if I knew what coffee table silence was,
I said I had heard it before in a Blythe Baird poem
Am I supposed to rest my feet on it like the poem tells me to?
Or am I just supposed to drink down coffee and tables then pull the splinters from my tounge and bite down to stop the bleeding?
I just hope my gag reflex is enough to hold it down.
I've been doing a lot of holding things down recently.
I just hope I can hold on at the same time.
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This piece was inspired by me being in a very restrictive mental state a while back. I just needed to let my emotions out and it came out in this form. It definitly got better for me and I want people to see this piece and firstly know that if you're feeling bad, it happens and just embrace it. Maybe you will get a nice piece of writing from it :) Inspiration comes from emotions.
Also I just would love to share my piece as it's my first time!