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And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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chantel15 said...
Dec. 21, 2011 at 12:53 pm:
this poem is amazing , i cant relate to losing someone so close to me and its diffcult to adjust to them not being in your life anymore.when your use to them everyday.
 
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eliana924 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 20, 2011 at 11:34 pm:
This is so heart-wrenching! Amazing job! I really like starting with "and" and then repeating it throughout. My only suggestion is that you might want to experiment with line breaks. But it's really a gorgeous poem :)
 
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_emmadilemma_ said...
Dec. 14, 2011 at 9:32 pm:
Beautiful! I love the idea of "looking through her glasses, to see what she saw" 
 
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Katie-jo said...
Dec. 14, 2011 at 4:25 pm:
This. Is. So. Sad. My mom almost died a few years ago...I remember seeing her in the hospital. She was asleep, and I remember being afraid to hold her hand...this poem makes me appreciate her more. You are a truly talented writer.
 
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mmcknight said...
Dec. 14, 2011 at 1:46 pm:
i know how you feel i lost my dad in 2007 and it has ben hard for me. but i know he is in heaven smiling down on me! great poem. loved it!
 
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Supernaturaladdict said...
Dec. 14, 2011 at 11:47 am:
One of my Favs!
 
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MakenzieB. said...
Dec. 14, 2011 at 10:24 am:
Amazing piece of work! I felt so much emotion in your words. It made me think about what my life would be like and how I would feel if my mother died (started crying at that point :P). Great choice or words! You are a very talented writer and you have earned my respect! 
 
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EmoAngel18 said...
Dec. 11, 2011 at 2:23 pm:
this poem made me realize how hard it is for my friends daughter. my friend is 16 and he has a daughter, her mother died a month after their daughter was born and now i try to take care of her and i try to spoil her as much as i can, although she is still a baby i know there will be a day tht she realizes her mom is gone. i try to be there for her as much as i can, i dont know how to handle this issue, im only 13
 
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GoGreenGirl said...
Dec. 9, 2011 at 10:13 am:
This is such a gorgous poem.  It seriously brought a tear to my eye...  This really deserves to be published.  Keep writing poems.
 
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MallikaS22This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 6, 2011 at 9:23 pm:
This is absolutely beautiful......
 
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Sammi• said...
Nov. 27, 2011 at 6:08 pm:
This make me feel so sad. It teaches me that I shouldn't take my mother for granted because, some people have a hole in their heart from a missing parent. :( sad story
 
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raindance72 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 27, 2011 at 12:29 pm:

This is emotional and well written. I love your use of the word "and" by the way.

Could I have some people check out my work? All I have right now is a poem, Falling. Would love to hear some comments :)

 
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AliLinn said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 9:43 pm:
That's so beautiful, Sweetheart....
 
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sondheimfreakThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 7:05 pm:
this is the deepest, most beautiful thing i think i've ever read on this website. way to take a horrible personal experience and turn it into something incredible. props to you!
 
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yesenia68 said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 5:03 pm:
Really beautiful, makes me almost want to take back complaints about my own mother. Sorry for your loss.
 
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BrokenBree said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 3:04 pm:
I read this awhile back, and reading it again is just amazing. I love this poem. You're an amazing writer. Keep it up.
 
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LoneBeauty said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 3:03 pm:

Your poem it quite good. so much emotion is put into this poem, and im sorry for your loss if if you lost your mother. You should continue writing you have a talent. :)

 

 
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clumsyteardropper said...
Nov. 22, 2011 at 10:31 am:
So sad. :(  I am very sorry for you loss.  May you allow it to make you stronger.
You live in Allentown, PA?  That's about an hour away from where I live :)
 
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Megan15 said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 5:52 pm:
Wow, i really love your poem, its beautiful.
 
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soccerfreak6 said...
Nov. 20, 2011 at 4:17 pm:
This is such a good poem, it made me cry
 
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