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I Did Not Cry
When I first came out
I did not cry.
I didn't know
a closet door could open
and have no one
gasp in horror at
the monsters living inside.
I did not cry
when I told
my mother she had a
lesbian daughter.
I didn't know
every time
she rewound my words
in her skull
she would cry
all on her own.
I did not cry
when I yelled
at the girl with the
bubble gum chapstick,
“I'M GAY, DANI!”.
I didn't know
she didn't actually know.
I didn't realize
anyone could be so blind.
I did not cry
when my crush asked me if
I was gay.
I didn't know
each time I said the word,
“Yes,”
pens would not drop.
The world would not stop.
It would be ignored.
Life would go on.
I did not cry
when I told myself
I was gay.
I didn't know
what shock was
until that moment,
how lonely felt
until I decided to
open the doors of
my own reality.
I did not cry.
I cried
when he
came out to me.
We had all known.
He had the mannerisms,
the speech,
his only friends were bubbly girls,
he had an ego the size of his self-doubt.
We didn't know
how much a stereotype could
break down a person
until they thought
nothing of themselves but
the mold they
were forced into.
When he came out
I said,
“I am so proud of you.”
I didn't say
I felt his heartbreak,
that I knew
what it was
to march down a hallway
with shackles
crushing your ankles together,
that I too fell in love
with rain on the off-chance
I saw a rainbow.
I cried.
I didn't know
what empathy was
until that moment.
What pride felt like
when another was
alongside you.
I cried.
I knew for every ten
there was one
alone in a crowd.
I knew children
were crying because
their own parents
would cry
if they knew.
I cried.
I knew he
felt every tear I didn't
produce
and I know
he will not feel
at home in his own soul
until he learns it
is okay to be in love
with rain as long
as he remembers
with each downpour
a rainbow is growing
between the clouds.
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I feel really proud of this.