I Mistook Self-Injury For Salvation This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

March 19, 2014
I read somewhere once
That if you are buried under an avalanche
You lose the ability to tell
Which way is up and which is down,
But instinct still kicks in
And you have no choice but to dig,
Frantically and haphazardly fighting for your life,
Even though there is a fifty-percent chance
That you are only making your grave deeper.
I made my grave deeper,
I dug into myself instead of outward,
Unable to differentiate
Between self-destruction and freedom.
No one seems to understand
That I thought I was escaping.
When they finally found me
My body was covered in claw marks
And they just assumed I went mad,
But under all that weight
I could've sworn I was headed toward the light,
I could've sworn I was fighting for my life
Instead of throwing it away.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.






Join the Discussion

This article has 3 comments. Post your own now!

mereCat This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 9, 2014 at 2:29 am
I don't know how I manage it but every single time I log off this site I somehow forget how many tallented, insightful and expressive teenagers it connects and each time when i log back on and find something else to read I am overwhelmed by people's work all over again. Thank you - this is amazing <3 
 
HbkooyThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Mar. 27, 2014 at 12:48 pm
Beautiful. I love it. :)
 
life_worth_living said...
Mar. 27, 2014 at 2:23 am
I like what you said, I can relate.
 
bRealTime banner ad on the left side
Site Feedback