As I sit on the couch
I think of what I could have done different
My Brain scrambles
My feelings intrigued

As her face rushes through my mind
I think of the mixed emotions
Happiness
Chronic Depression

Why did she not care I was around.
But frustrated when she couldn't find me.
All the sweetness I gave.
Nothing in return.

Even after the pain
I still like her
I must be insane
As I watch the tears hit the ground.

I was always in trouble
For some reason I liked it
Forgiveness around the corner
Forgetfulness around the next

The pain she gave me
filled a void
I don't know why
It might take the place of my dad when he is gone

A love that could not be stopped
Even after all the pain
Like a lovesick puppy
Making it through the day

As I awaken
The void is empty.
Rain hits the side of the house
And the emptiness returns.