Our Monster Within

Walking through my mind alone
I see memories far from unknown.

Nights of happiness, fogged by false love
Like everything else it all came undone.


Time passed, wounds healed slowly
Still I could see my heart’s blood pooling.

Pain still was there, slowly breaking me down
Until the last Berliner broke down MY Berlin Wall.

My emotions freed I could feel fear the most
Because of this I kept losing those I held close.

Black claws of anger kept dragging me down
I fell so far I was sure I would drown.

My eyes stung with tears I refused to shed
But when they finally fell they were as heavy as lead.

Within the darkness though I could still see
Even though a salty tear sea had seemed to swallow me.

A face maybe, one or two, seven if I counted them all
So many people, they all still cared, they wouldn’t let me fall.

The coldness lifted from Winter to Spring
Encouraging words made my ears ring.

Warmth was all around, it felt so foreign
How could I believe it? This feeling was so alien.

I had stayed cold for months, til even my skin was cool to the touch
Like every Ice Age though it melted away, true friends warming me like a torch.

Whether they were here or in another state
They didn’t care, they all came to my aid.

How stupid I was for thinking it was over, I was alone
When the only thing that actually ended, was my sadness.

Though I still feel darkness anywhere I go
My friends will stay with me, guarding me like crows*

No longer am I blind to the monsters inside us all
Like everything else it will also fall.

Every monster has a story, every monster has a cure
When the time comes, will you have the courage to tell yours?

Dedicated to;
Brooke
Lourdes
Scarlett
Austin
Julia
Shiloh

* Crows guide others in a sense. Crows are very good at recognizing faces, and if they see a face they have never seen before, or something that doesn’t belong or will cause danger, the crow lets out it’s stereotypical; “Caw! Caw!” as a warning call to the rest of the flock. In a way the crows that are my friends will guide me away from danger, and give me a warning call if something is amiss.