I'm so confused. Not sure why its hI'm. Not sure why I couldn't choose. He hurts so much each tI'me he reminds me the rejection. But then he says a little thing that contradicts hI'm. He sparks a small shred of hope though I know he's just toying with me. But then he's not completely honest. He holds back, I don't know why. Why doesn't he tell me what's in his mind? Is the truth really going to hurt me that much? I don't know, I'm so confused. I try to think but i cant since he always sets my heart ablaze. Then as quickly as it lit up, he drowns it in a lake of icy cold rejection. But I he lies. I see it in his eyes, but why doesn't he tell me? Why? I'm so confused that as i write this, I'm not sure how i feel.
October 29, 2012