It’s a secret
I wish I could just paint it all out
For you to see
What that man has done to me
But it seems
Almost as if the train has left
The ship its harbor
And all that’s left is this deep resentment I harbor
But I want to scream it at your heads
Smash your eardrums
LISTEN make it something you’ll never forget
I bet
The fact will simply rip out your hearts to see
The devils sin has conquered me
It is not my fault they say
But my conscience is devouring my brain, I pray
I have never done that before
So when will this acid stop to implore
To burn my breath and everything that’s kept this inside is ready to fly
And die, like fallen angels dropped of from the skies
My memories just don’t seem to care
About the useless part human I bare
I felt it knocking, grinning like the hunters in a witch hunt
Waiting for the signal to start, they scratch at my pores
Having tools to open these doors
And I can hear it – the anthem
Of the deadly and inhumane starting
I can see the angles of those doors parting
With my rotten beaten center crippled to the core
I am a w****
Physically and mentally abused
I got used, to my tears being useless
Still my frantic eyes aren’t a mess
Not yet
They remained clear to see
Me and my whole soul’s destruction
Imagine I inherited this apocalyptic consumption, and its there
The age of time pulling out my youthful hair
I go bald
I wish I wouldn’t care about him or her
Well I do
I need to be careful when walking
Cause people are talking and I might
Trip on this open shoe
It is dragging, I know it is time to die
To be reborn
My blood flow stopped, as all is worn
Doctor I can not tell you what’s wrong
My words are too long
Even for myself to speak the truth
I’m embarrassed for my own anarchy’s youth
But truth
I like to say you have no idea
When it’s clear, ALL OF US HAVE BEEN THERE BEFORE
Still it’s hard
To describe the state that I’m in
Here’s a hint
It’s a secret
And with time I’ll loose my essence in it.