The Fluster

August 7, 2012
By Ga-GahKayMarie GOLD, Patterson, California
Ga-GahKayMarie GOLD, Patterson, California
14 articles 0 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
If there is one word to describe life it is one


Challenges... I have them daily.
Every time I think everything is good....
Something changes...
Something happens....
Something dreadful....
Something blood curling, chilling...
I'm scared...
Scared I'l loose what I love...
Scared I wont make it...
Scared I cant...
Scared of him...
Scared of falling,
Failing,
Disappointing.
Too much comes too fast!
The universe throwing all its shots right at me,
Is it a test?
Did I pass?

..........
.....
...
.
It is all a trick to me,
A game that has to be won, but will be lost,
A sea I am drowning in.
A blizzard I am caught in.
A stray dog that I am.
I cannot keep up with the pace I am expected.
I am scared,
Every time I go home,
Every time I have to hear,
Hear that criticism,
See that face.
I shiver at the thought,
I wish he would change.
Become soothing, and caring...
But that's only in fairytales right?
No one has it, but I want it!
I want that care.
I want that attention.
.
I want that love.
Is it that hard to give?
All I want is for him to pretend.
Pretend he cares.
Maybe that he doesn't hate me every now and then.
I hate the negativity everyone has!
Why can't you just look on the bright side?
The fact you are alive.
Healthy.
Breathing.
And that I care...
Heartless is what you are becoming...
I feel bad for you.
Bad that you are so dumb you cannot see that I am trying.
Trying to impress you.
Trying to make you happy.
Trying to change.
Well use to try anyway.
I gave up on you a long time ago.
You should never have been anyone's dad.
Especially not mine!
So leave!
Stop threatening it!
Just grow some balls and do it!
If you truly don't care it should be easy!
Because well the truth is we are better off without you......
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on Aug. 13 2012 at 11:47 pm
Ga-GahKayMarie GOLD, Patterson, California
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Favorite Quote:
If there is one word to describe life it is one

Yes it is! Well see I read my poetry to my friends and when I read it those periods and comma's and dashes are used just to show you sort of how I read it, If you know what Slam Poetry is you may Understand, see I read it in a dramatic way so that the listener gets the feeling I am portraying to them :) 

on Aug. 13 2012 at 11:44 pm
Ga-GahKayMarie GOLD, Patterson, California
14 articles 0 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
If there is one word to describe life it is one

Thanks :) yea my dad is not the nicest man you could say and he wont change so I just have to get over that fact, and yea my weakness is punctuation so you may see that often in my poetry but I hope I will get the hang of that this year. 

on Aug. 12 2012 at 4:57 pm
Kiki_McGee GOLD, Woodstock, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul - and sings the tunes without the words - and never stops at all." - Emily Dickinson

Amazing poem! Is this based off of what is really happening in your life? I hope not. Besides a few missing commas I can't find anything else that needs fixing. I hope that your relationship with your dad gets better.

on Aug. 9 2012 at 1:46 pm
PaigeStreet PLATINUM, Juneau, Alaska
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Favorite Quote:
"Stay golden"
- Johnny (The Outsiders, S. E. Hinton)

Unlike a lot of poetry- which seems directly spoken, this is very obviously an internal dialogue. Its interesting. It gives the subtle impression of caged-in reality without explicity stating it. Also- your trademark use of period dots comes in handy here. I'm curious what this poem would look like if you wrote it to be spoken to someone or some people in particular. 


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