I have never been so depressed
I was once happy, now I’ve regressed
I feel like I should tell someone
But they think I’m the golden son
Destroyed my mind and now I’m dumb
Whatever it takes to ensure I’m numb
Anything must be better than this
Empty feeling that I get
When I am alone, trying to sleep
Having thoughts that make me weep
And make me realize I am weak
I’m not the person I wanted to be
I’m not the person they can see
I built the cage, forgot the key
Can’t find the one to set me free

You don’t know me, don’t pretend
It’s not your fault I didn’t let you in
But if I did then things would change
I just want things to stay the same
So I’ll stay away and hide the pain
Don’t worry about me, I can refrain
No I’m not insane or suicidal
Just leave me alone for a little while
And I’ll lie here in my emotional bile
How is it that life, so beautiful, can be so vile?