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June 15, 2012
Running away from pain
I cant seem to escape
It scares me
that I cant avoid feeling this way

Sometimes im desperate
to find relief
so I grab my knife
and take it with me

I run somewhere
that no one will find me
dig deep in my arm
and watch myself bleed

for a moment it feels good
and the drowsiness kicks in
but when I wake up
I wonder why my life didnt end

Im crazy, messed up
I need some serious help
Im alone in my life
like a doll left on the shelf

only taken down
when its time to be played with
when im put back up
my heart has another rip

its horrible and excruciating
dealing with all this
im so sick of my life
im tired of feeling worthless

why cant somebody love me?
and mean it instead of lying?
im going to lose my head one day
i really feel like dying

it hasnt gotten anybody anywhere
so why do they keep lying to me?
making me feel like
maybe they actually care?

im all alone in the world
in this huge black hole
this deep dark abyiss
im about to give up
and seal my last letter with a kiss

But who would read it?
I dont think anyone cares
They say they do
but theyre never here

Im all alone
Ready to die
It would be so easy
if only i could say goodbye





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lil.awol This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 19, 2012 at 3:54 pm
idk if this is just for dramatic effect or what, but i used to feel a lot like this. but u have to remember to just keep going, nothing lasts forever, the hurt will eventually lessen. i love the part about sealing the last letter with a kiss. please read/rate/comment on my work :)
 
LizziTowers replied...
Jun. 30, 2012 at 9:12 am
Thank you. I feel like this alot, and although I would never do it, these thoughts pop up in my mind a lot. I will definitely read your work (:
 
KaylaMarie83 said...
Jun. 18, 2012 at 1:50 am
I really appreciate the raw emotion you put into this poem. Its tragically beautiful. Comment mine please?
 
LizziTowers replied...
Jun. 30, 2012 at 9:14 am
Thank you so much!That is one of the best things anyone has ever said about my work! I write when things pop into my head. A lot of times, I will be doing something completely different, but I will go and grab my notebook and pen and write and write, and basically just zone out from everyone around me. 
 
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