I walk down the school hallways
A repetitive five days a week
I avert my attention toward the guys
And try to make conversation
Even though I’m helplessly ignored
Because to me they have nothing to say
However, there’s one certain guy on my mind
The one responsible for many of my thoughts
He’s in a different crowd than I
And I don’t know his feelings towards me
Or what his friends think of me for that matter
But I think he’s worth pursuing

I try to stand out
I try, I try, I try
But my efforts seem to go nowhere
It’s just me and my emotions and there seems to be no escape
I need to get out of my head before I breakdown further
All while keeping my composure to try and impress this guy
At least I have my best guy friend
Someone to talk to and mess around with
He is a clown, but he makes me smile
And in this place called high school
Smiling is rare
I just hope he continues to stick around

Because I need someone to be there for me
As I cry myself to sleep
The time when I play out impossible scenarios in my head
I always wish for the best
But life doesn’t always give me that luxury
And at school I may seem like I’m happy
But honestly, I don’t know if I’m emotionally ready.