Awaken

And as the temptress whispers,
Guiding me to wake,
I look at what surrounds me,
Wondering of my fate.

My heart has taken root.
Buried pieces of itself.
Taken hold of family,
Found places among friends.

I ask if this is too good,
Question how this can be true.
Refuse to think of future days
When I won't have this to lose.

I burn to mind the memories
The moments, names, faces.
I etch in stone these days
I want to always stay in

Afraid to shed a tear
In fear sorrow will wash it away.
Reluctant to speed the pace
Of time, premature it fades

I take into my hands
The feeling I haven't processed
And hold them close in silence
Throat clenched, unexpressed

Just how afraid I am
That my eyes will open and see
That all I've found to love here
Is banished to taunt my dreams.

And with heavy thoughts in mind
I find myself awake.
I look at what surrounds me.

Absence.

Empty lonely space.