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Never loved, Never missed

It’s hard to miss something you’ve never had
But it goes along with not having a dad
I’ve lost all respect
But what can a person except when he was never there

As a child I thought it was unfair and misunderstood
I’d wonder what I did wrong to make him leave
Because he never was a part of me

When I got older I found him
And realized it was a mistake
Because the bruises and scars that he
Left on me will never go away

The sad thing is, I kept going back
I gave him chance after chance
But nothing ever changed

Now I’m 17 going on 18 and I’ve
learned that my dad ran out of chances
a long time ago. He could have had a
place in my heart, but all he’s done
is tear it apart.
I just hope that when I get older and leave HS, go onto college and have a career and family.
I hope I can look back and say he’s the one that missed out.
I hope he feels bad about not being there when Grandpa died. And when he wasn’t there to protect me from the babysitter down the street when I was ten.
And the end of the day I hope I have plenty of other people backing me up that have been there with me through it all.
Because I’ve made it through all of this standing on my own two feet. And I’ve grown up in so many ways.
And at the end I hope he looks back and regrets hurting me and never having a place in my heart.
Because the only good thing that came of this was that I learned how to become a stronger person

Because it takes a man to be a father,
So dad, don’t even bother



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taygirl1245 said...
Nov. 5, 2011 at 8:11 am:
I LOVE the last stanza, it is what i have been think for years just never had the courage to say. Keep writting.
 
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petleavitt said...
Nov. 4, 2011 at 2:29 pm:
wow! You took the words out of my mouth!!! Check me out plz!!!!!
 
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LiberianBadd said...
Nov. 4, 2011 at 10:34 am:

OMYGOSH  TEARS IN MY EYES!...... 

P.S. luvvvvv IT!

 

 
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blahhmonster said...
Nov. 3, 2011 at 5:34 pm:
wow! im really touched! i have always had my dad but i really feal for people with problems and i know it helps to let it out in writing. good job and keep up the great work!
 
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Gee-Gee said...
Nov. 3, 2011 at 10:20 am:
this was great, sad but great, i can relate and i really enjoyed it.
 
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Kpalo14 said...
Nov. 3, 2011 at 9:20 am:
i can relate to your story and it gave me chills to read the words you wrote, good job on this
 
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hectic.harmony said...
Nov. 2, 2011 at 10:09 pm:
i loved this, i can relate to it, i just got in contact with my biological dad and he just keeps screwing with my head, hes only there when he needs something. My step dad raised me and it hurt him when he knew i was talking to my biological dad but i told him he raised me and he was my father that no one could replace that, and that joe is just a dad. keep writting. your amazing. i look forward to seeing more from you.
 
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dancestar said...
Nov. 2, 2011 at 1:28 pm:
that was really gud...amazing nd very touching...i m sorry u actually had to go thro this (if this is abt u)...keep writing!!! nd i hope u wanna check out my work like "The Girl Next Door" thanks!
 
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