I know they’ll never believe me
because the words are always the same
It’s different now
but they can’t feel the pain induced indifference
The whether you live or die,
for heaven’s sake I will be fine
They don’t feel the rage that I have never felt before
because I’ve always been so pure
but he took that away from me
The only things these hands want to hold is my fingers together in a fist
He’s a deserted island
alone and forever isolated with the knowledge
that no one wants to be stuck with him
It took too long for me to realize
that it was worth almost drowning to get away
but I survived the swim, more refreshing than terrifying
and the most freeing feeling was not being able to see him anymore