I crowd my mind with people I never really had.
I drown my thoughts with words I never said.
I pushed myself against walls that are made of steel.
I burn my skin till their isn't anymore skin to peel.
I access ideas that aren't really meant to be.
I guess that fate and her, not there apparently.
I pound my ears with songs that mean a lot.
I read texts that help my torture, help me rot.
I can't believe that this stuff always happens.
I don't think I deserve it, I have innocent actions.
I mean it is for some reason, or just for terror?
I just cannot believe it, it's impossible not to care.
I bleed these words so my heart can repair.
I don't want to talk right now, don't you dare.
I simply don't want anything, except the girl.
I hurl because of the way my emotions twirl.
I get my hopes up until an elephant comes along.
I then watch as it crushes my only right from wrongs.
I jump for joy until I realize I'm in a refrigerator.
I believe my hearts gone cold, no more love curator.
I hope I never can attain a gun or find a river.
Because the thoughts I've been having tonight,
Make even myself shiver.