i don't feel
i don't want to feel
i don't want to feel anything but pain
pain is easier than facing
all the "monsters" that haunt me
not only in my sleep
they haunt me
they taunt me
for being honest
for being who i truly am
for not being what they want
holding me
keeping me in captivation
mocking me of all my "imperfections"
any chance they got
forced to follow their restrictions
their regulations
i don't want to be who they mold me to be
i don't want to be other than me
i don't want to feel what they want me to feel
if i allow them to force
unhappiness on me
i just might not
feel a need to breathe