I often think to myself this world is crashing around my feet and I just canâ€™t stop it. It doesnâ€™t matter if things are going good or if there going bad, this feeling just comes back at me in flashes. You would think happiness is something easy to achieve but for meâ€¦keeping it is a struggle. Crying out for help doesnâ€™t workâ€¦nobody cares, nobody listens. Itâ€™s like standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming and nobody hears you. The feeling of loneliness is normal for me. Knowing youâ€™re on your own can be a very freighting situation when youâ€™re not as strong as everybody thinks you are. To the world you may seem as strong as a rock but deep down, youâ€™re more fragile then a piece of glass. The pain you feel everyday is betrayal. When people leave your life they leave the knife behind that they stabbed in your back. To some people this may seem like a nightmare but for me, this is my reality.
August 15, 2011