Digging in Yellowed Pages

August 5, 2011
I don’t get what I’m breathing.
Is it air? Or something thicker?

It's time to designate a new focus.
It's time to designate a new love.

These books. These pages.
Let me drown in them.
And let take place this thick vacuum of gas.

The dusty scent of the pages,
Let them suffocate and take me into a different world.

Just for now.
Just for this short time.

And let them improve my being and my intellect.

That's all I have to chant for. That's all I can do.

Meditating and sleep are out the window as I try to immerse myself to become a different being.
A different character.

My mediocre attempts at life are feeble and meaningless,
And even with these thoughts gradually being stuffed back into the back of my mind,
It's all I can do before I lash out.

I should take what they are and make them me.
I will be cunning.
I will be brave.
I will be strong.
I will be comical.
I will be dirty.
I will be magical.

Perhaps, even with my indubitable fate,
I can pull through and make it mighty worthy of being recorded into the recycled pages of the stories I read now.
I honestly hope so.

But right now,
The first thing,
And only thing,
I can do is avoid my own throat and chest.

Right now,
I need to find new air to breathe.

Back to the books they call fiction.
Back to breathing in their realities...

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blitsnik said...
Aug. 24, 2011 at 5:07 am
Oh, this is great! I love the last stanza, about breathing in the realities of fiction, because sometimes, fiction is more real than what you see in real life. good job!
shadowrider said...
Aug. 24, 2011 at 12:01 am
This is fantastic. This poem made me feel, it's poetic, deep, and amazingly descriptive. Each word seemed perfect and yet like it all flowed out. You made an impact on my mind with this poem, I am still untangling it from my own thoughts. Wonderful! The rhythm was especially beautiful.
Mystiecub said...
Aug. 22, 2011 at 12:21 pm
This is really well written :D good job
Bambi67 said...
Aug. 22, 2011 at 11:27 am
very  nice!!keep writing=)
MagicMan2011 said...
Aug. 21, 2011 at 10:59 pm
This was pretty good. This almost sounds like a short story.
MoraleAsh said...
Aug. 21, 2011 at 10:50 pm
This is really creative. I like the format and your use of punctuation!
writing.is.my.life. said...
Aug. 20, 2011 at 6:29 pm
ok. I must say that I love this poem. I can really relate to it. Keep up the good work!! :)
Hazel-daisy This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 20, 2011 at 3:39 pm
i reallly like it, its quite orginial!
dark_armor1This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Aug. 20, 2011 at 10:57 am
it was pretty good ! job well done !
leafy This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 20, 2011 at 9:12 am
nice job, it was well written and had a unique flow to it. keep up the good work!
musicispassion said...
Aug. 16, 2011 at 9:18 pm
great job i liked eit keep writing :P
Kev-Girl said...
Aug. 16, 2011 at 2:15 pm
hey i realy liked this! good job! looking forward to reading some of your other stuff!
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