I want to be.

July 1, 2011
By Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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I want to be perfect. I want to be what makes you so indescribably happy. I want to reach the highest mountain just to look down. I want to be at the top so you’ll catch me if I fall. I want to believe you’ll be there when I do so. I want to love with the strongest love. I want to hurt with the craziest pain. I want to live this life to every full I can get. I want to fill up walls with words. I want to make you realize who you are, who we are, and what we can do. I have so many goals that I am dying to achieve. I want to break with the biggest brick. I want to fight with the dullest sword and win. I want to crawl into the arms of someone to love me. I want to impact you, your friend, and your worst enemy. I want to be what you crave, what you envy, what you hate, and what you loathe. I want to love you with a passion, and hate you with a dread. I want to sleep forever, and stay awake for eternity. I want to die just to feel alive, because living makes me feel dead. I want to give everything to someone. I want to believe there is more to life. But I am. I am Janessa. I am broken. I am healing. I am messing up. I am a mistake. I am dying. I am living. I am a reversed curse. I am what you hate. I am what you loathe. I am not worth the love of the world. I am never going to reach my goals. I am lazy. I am a writer. I am not worth the pain. I am addicted to pouring myself out. I am filling back up. I am imperfect. I am just a girl, dying to be with you.



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k.s.h. GOLD said...
on Aug. 6 2011 at 10:19 pm
k.s.h. GOLD, Depauw, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I--I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.


Robert Frost

I am glad for your understanding.

on Jul. 21 2011 at 4:59 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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thanks so much.:)

on Jul. 21 2011 at 4:58 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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thankyou.:)

on Jul. 21 2011 at 4:57 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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thankyou very much.:)

on Jul. 21 2011 at 4:57 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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I wouldnt get mad! I need the critique to do better.:)

abbya BRONZE said...
on Jul. 17 2011 at 8:53 pm
abbya BRONZE, St.Charels, Missouri
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wow that is awsome!!!! :)

on Jul. 14 2011 at 8:21 pm
TheHangingGirl BRONZE, Winter Haven, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"Poets utter great and wise things that they themselves can not comprehend."

" I am a reversed curse." I love that line!!!!!!! Amazing!

on Jul. 13 2011 at 2:04 pm
AlondraB SILVER, Montclair, California
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Favorite Quote:
without rebellion you will have no compromise,and without compromise you will have no future. now all you need to do is to go out and speak your mind before you stand by and let weakness take over you.

no problem....keep it up

k.s.h. GOLD said...
on Jul. 13 2011 at 7:49 am
k.s.h. GOLD, Depauw, Indiana
11 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I--I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.


Robert Frost

Thank you for understanding and not getting all mad at me!

on Jul. 12 2011 at 11:39 pm
Princess2011 BRONZE, New Delhi, Other
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"I want to die just to feel alive, because living makes me feel dead." i loved this line and many others..  .. nice ..

on Jul. 12 2011 at 6:47 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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You totally understand. Thankyou so much!

on Jul. 12 2011 at 6:39 pm
AlondraB SILVER, Montclair, California
9 articles 0 photos 14 comments

Favorite Quote:
without rebellion you will have no compromise,and without compromise you will have no future. now all you need to do is to go out and speak your mind before you stand by and let weakness take over you.

i really like this poem..kinda long but fll of meaning..i love how u aid that u want to die bcuz like makes u feel dead bcuz i can totally relate..great job!

on Jul. 12 2011 at 5:35 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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Thankyou!:)

on Jul. 12 2011 at 5:34 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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thanks!:) Yes, it is I couldve shortened it.

on Jul. 12 2011 at 5:33 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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Thankyou so much. Yeah, I shouldve broke it up. But you learn from your mistakes.:)

on Jul. 12 2011 at 5:32 pm
Casual.dreamer SILVER, Bakersfield, California
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Thankyou so much. Yeah, I shouldve broke it up. But you learn from your mistakes.:)

soprano.acc said...
on Jul. 12 2011 at 5:12 pm
soprano.acc, Lexington, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"There is no good or evil, only power" J.K. Rowling in "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone"

Not bad, but kind of repetitive. 

k.s.h. GOLD said...
on Jul. 12 2011 at 3:59 pm
k.s.h. GOLD, Depauw, Indiana
11 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I--I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.


Robert Frost

I like it, but it's long and filled with "I want"s and "I am"s.

on Jul. 12 2011 at 2:01 pm
missalaynius SILVER, Lincoln Park, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
I'm just sort of here.

This poem is very good and strongly emotional, but it's hard to read because there are no line breaks and it's a big mass of text. Good work, though. :)


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