You hide
Deep within your past
You make the pain last
Ignore your hunger and fast
From any hint of love
To be shown
To be known
And then to be alone again
Is unbearable, impossible to grasp.

When will you learn to live,
Allow yourself to receive what you give?
Your answer is just the question relived
And no one
Understands
You hold yourself together in a single strand
So addicted to
Fulfilling everyone's demands
You aren't afraid of water
Just of drowning on dry land.

So you shut the world out.

Too proud to grieve what you've lost
Going to extremes no matter what the cost
You feast on the lies everyone's tossed,
Can't count all the lines
You've had to cross
Just to survive
Just to get by
Just to get out of this f***ing mess
Alive....
Don't cover your scars
You deserve to be loved the way you are.

And I watch you fight
Don't bother hiding your tears
Just looking in your eyes, I see a million fears
You can't escape the ghosts you've inherited over the years
I would say so much
If only you could hear.

You've boxed your own body
Bruised, bloody and mangled
You're life is delicate as a spider web, the fibers
Tangled
On the outside you're seen from such a different angle
Your wants are crushed
Your needs are strangled...

BUT...

Don't forget
Don't regret
You're so much more than just a silhouette
You're trapped in a game of suicide roulette
I can't get you out
I can't reach you now
Don't give up because they disavow
Pleas!
They don't know you anyhow!!

But you fall
Away
And I finally
Awake
Reality is much more harsh than it seems
What you can escape in the sun
Bleeds out through dreams...
The girl in my nightmare has never been you

It's always been me.