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The Girl Inside.

She is their doll
Their slave.
She is a mirror image of their motions
And follows them around like a hungry dog.
She hides under her thick mask of makeup and forced smiles.
But it is the girl inside
That was once my true best friend.
Now she’s at the other end of the cafeteria
Sitting beside the queen of the kingdom.
A cruel-hearted witch in designer’s clothing.
I on the other hand
Live in the land of the wandering minstrels and scholars
Our noses forever buried in books
Our premises overflowing with laughter.
But
I can see that look of longing when she spots me giggling along
To something that I actually find funny.
I can see that gleam of regret
When she notices how at ease we are at our lunch table.
And I can see that blush of shame
When we lock eyes for a quick moment.
Even though I don’t forgive the girl who snickers at me in the halls
I forgive the girl inside.



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ExpRESsY0uRselF said...
Jun. 10, 2011 at 9:36 am:
Hi, this is Caitlin, I just want to say please comment on my work whenever you take a look at it, thanks! Also, if you have time, please check out all of my other poems, and soon, a new fiction piece! :) Thank you so much!
 
Elaine1 replied...
Jun. 11, 2011 at 11:50 am :
Nicely done and very well written. I really like this peom and in reading it I can already tell you are a very soft spoken writter and you can be very emotional in your writing as well if need be. I truly look forward to reading more of your work when I get the chance and I sincerily hope they are all just as good as this one if not they will be better in every way. Thank you again for giving me the opertunity to very your work it is truly an inspiration.
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 12, 2011 at 11:47 am :
Wow, thanks, that means a lot to me! :)
 
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HorseLover said...
Jun. 9, 2011 at 7:00 am:
I've just read everything you've posted on here and I have to say I think this is the best one. It was really amazing to read. I wish I could write something like that!
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 9, 2011 at 7:16 pm :
Thank you, and i definitely agree with you!
 
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Shyzilla said...
Jun. 8, 2011 at 9:02 pm:
I really liked it..especially because I felt I could relate. Really great (:
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 9, 2011 at 7:15 pm :
Thank you Shyzilla!
 
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JoPepper said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 6:06 pm:
This is really really really good I like how you compared the two opposing forces!  This is relateable to nearly anyone! Can you please check out some of my stuff and comment and Rate!!!!!!!!!!!
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 8, 2011 at 7:44 pm :
Thanks JoPepper, and I'll be sure to check out your work!
 
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Stpaulian said...
Jun. 1, 2011 at 7:36 pm:
i'm so glad you posted this. I absolutly love it! Amazing:)
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 8, 2011 at 7:44 pm :

Thanks Stpaulian, that means so much to me!

 

 
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the.world.in.my.eyes said...
May 27, 2011 at 9:43 am:
this is such a great poem! it really is true and thank u for sharing it with the world :) good work :)
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 8, 2011 at 7:43 pm :
Thank you the.world.in.my.eyes!
 
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forever_an_artist said...
May 11, 2011 at 10:32 am:
Wow! I love this! The wording flows beautifully and the message is something I can totally relate to. Great job!
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Jun. 8, 2011 at 7:43 pm :
Thanks forever_an_artist! :) I appreciate it!
 
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bbeast said...
May 2, 2011 at 4:03 pm:

Ouch! You're tearing my heart out with memories. I'm so sorry that you had to endure something so heartrending. I've totally been there before. I'm not sure I'll ever completely heal. 'Cause like you said, "Even though I don't forgive the girl who snickers at me in the halls" which I cannot do. I do "forgive the girl inside."

Thanks for sharing this. It was very insightful, and reminded me of who I know my friend is inside. I owe you one.

 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
May 3, 2011 at 3:51 pm :
Wow, thank you so much! 8) But I wrote about this especially because it was something that most girls in junior high and highschool can relate to it. Thanks for your support! 8)
 
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PJD17 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 28, 2011 at 6:22 pm:
excellent work
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
May 1, 2011 at 11:38 am :
Once again, thank you! 8)
 
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livlaughluv98 said...
Apr. 28, 2011 at 8:09 am:
This poem was great!! I can relate to it so much because I've been in the situation before. If you have time, could you check out my story "Just Like My Mother"? Please rate and comment on it cause I need all the feedback I can get. Thanks and great job =]
 
ExpRESsY0uRselF replied...
Apr. 28, 2011 at 5:47 pm :
Thanks so much, and I will definitely check your work out!
 
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