There they were
Staring at me
In all their glory
The thing I desired and the one I was obliged to

How could you choose one?
But there I was
Choosing

My wife
The one I loved
Planned to have a family with

Or my dream
The one that had been held deep inside
For all these years
That I dared not tell anyone

How could you choose one?
But there I was
Choosing

My wife
The beautiful woman
The woman
I loved
Who loved me
Who I hoped would bare my children
Who would hold me when I’m sick
When I’m old
When nobody else would

But
Was she beautiful
Who’s to judge
Did I love her
Did she love me
Would she bare my children
Would she hold me when I’m sick
When I’m old
When nobody else would
Or did I want to pursue my dream

Then there was my dream
The dream
The desire
To leave
Leave everything behind
Pursue my passion
Do what
I’d always wanted to do
I’d always put on hold

But
Was it my dream
The dream
My desire
Did I want to leave
Leave everything behind
Pursue my passion
Was it my passion
Did I want to do it
Had I always wanted to
Had I always put it on hold
Or did I love my wife

How could you choose one?
But there I was
Choosing

I was frustrated
Who wouldn’t be

Would they?
Was it just me
Did anyone else question
Question what they already had
What they could have
Was it just me

I loved my wife
I loved her
I married her
I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her
I wanted to raise children with her
I wanted to grow old with her
That is what I wanted

But there was always that
What if
What if I went for the dream
If that was what I wanted

I dreamed of my dream
The day I would leave
The day I would pursue
Desire

But
Did I need the dream
What if I left her
What would happen to her
What if she was it
If that was what I wanted

What brought me happiness

Happiness?

What’s happiness
Who can tell me what it is
Who can tell me that I’m happy
That I’m not happy
Who can tell me what will make me happy
What will make me unhappy
Does anyone know?

Happiness

I was happy
Loving her
Dreaming of dreams
But I wanted something more
More than dreams
If that’s what it was
More than love
If that’s what it was

I had to choose

How could you choose one?
But there I was
Choosing