Envy is a Dangerous Word

High school can be difficult.


The classes,
the homework,
the cliques,
and the pressure.

Oh, the pressure.
To drink,
to smoke,
to have sex,
to fit in,
to know your direction in life.

Everyone around me as well as I are experiencing them. Yet, I stand alone, left to battle solo with another pressure.

The pressure to come out.

Walk straight on out of the closet, into an unforgiving world consisting of
stereotypes,
discrimination,
dirty looks,
and secret sneers.

I envy those who are not faced with this dilemma. I envy those who do not have to keep secrets and love behind closed doors. Most of all, I envy him.

He, who has her.
He, who can wrap an arm around her waist, freely.
He, who can kiss her, any time he desires to do so.
He, who holds her precious heart.



And I, who never will.





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just-a-joy said...
Dec. 20, 2010 at 12:53 pm

i been there havingi secrits that u wanna hide bec u dont how ppl will think of u  HS is hard

i realy like ur stuff keep writting

 
WhenDreamsBecomeNightmares replied...
Dec. 20, 2010 at 7:23 pm
thank you very much(:
 
darkangelforgotten said...
Dec. 20, 2010 at 12:41 am

I feel the same pressure. Not only is working up the courage to come out a problem, but finding another girl like me when people like us are so scarce in this world. I feel your pain, I share your pain, and I want you to know you're not alone. One day you'll have no pressure on your shoulders about your sexuality. And I hope that day comes soon for you.

Good luck.

 
WhenDreamsBecomeNightmares replied...
Jan. 13, 2011 at 3:53 pm
i sure hope so too. thank you. 
 
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