Lost (in the darkness)

November 20, 2010
I am lost in the darkness
and light cannot be emitted
and I am going crazy;
unable to see my own fingers.
I walk slowly
careful to feel the cold walls around me.
They lock me in
but they make me feel safe.
Lying in the open is a book
it is too dark for me to see
but I do not look down.
I only keep walking and walking.
The walls never seem to end.

I am lost in the darkness
and I can see a light ahead.
I can feel its warmth
reaching out.
But my hands are firm against these walls,
these walls that hold me in.
I try to go toward the light;
that thin sliver of truth.
But the walls start to fade and I am
I run back into the darkness
and cling to the walls that I have grown so close to.
Again I pass a book
on the way back into the darkness
but with my hands all I feel are the walls.
They are cold
but i won’t look down and I keep walking.

I am lost in the darkness
and now I am out of hope.
I wish for the light to return
but it never comes back.
My hands are scarred
from dragging along these rough walls
and finally
I let go.
The pain is gone, but still I see nothing
but the dark.
The book is beneath my feet
and I reach down to pick it up.
I cannot see the pages
even as I hold them
because the light has run away from me
and now I collapse on the ground
which is cooler than the walls.
The book is in my hands
and even though I cannot read it
I won’t let go.
I regret that I ever turned from the light
to chase after darkness and cling to its walls.
Because now
I will remain

lost in the darkness forever.

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citydancer94 said...
Dec. 10, 2010 at 5:58 pm
this is excelent. it's sad though, because i think i understand what you're talking about. that book, it's a book with a lot of truth in it. i encourage you to read it. i've been in that place before. it was the book that led me out. God Bless
-LeftBehindBroken- replied...
Dec. 10, 2010 at 7:54 pm
You should listen to the song "The Last Night" by Skillet. actually the lead singer is who really made me want to go back to believing. i love that song and now im just waiting for someone to care about me that much and help me walk through :)
LaShay_25 said...
Dec. 10, 2010 at 8:51 am
This is really dramatic and I can even picture you in the darkness clinging onto the walls... Your really good I mean really good =]
-LeftBehindBroken- replied...
Dec. 10, 2010 at 7:52 pm
it really means a lot to me that you would take the time to reassure me! im so sick of people that lie and tell me my writing is good when it's one of my worst, but since you are aweeesome and part of teen ink i believe you :)
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