numb?

Numb that’s what I used to want to be
Comfort that’s what I thought I needed
Fear was all that I thought was there
Despair was all I ever found
And that was never anything to me

Then I found

Love at least superficially
Happiness at least for a time
Sickness at the core for what remained
Was sick at the thought of not being needed
For something they could respect

Happy is what I think I currently am
Hope is what I think I need to keep hold of
Healthy in body and healthy in mind
Hungry in sprit for my god’s word
And that is truly all I know I will ever need

That’s what I found