Sometimes I feel like I am falling into a pit,
So deep, so dark, and I will never get out.
I have to graduate,
I have to give all the people I know that much,
When I am such a failure to them otherwise.
But what pleasure can I derive from this when I just want to jump into the hole.
Its like sometimes I am drowning in nothing but the sheer darkness around me and some nights I just don't want to get free.
I want to let it immerse me in the painful comfort it offers.
I am at a loss of how to save myself from it, I am not even quite sure I want to anymore.
I feel sometimes that the best choice would be to graduate, move away, and let myself fade into the darkness.