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I pray
I pray to be killed
By your gun.
I’m tired of being killed
By your words.
I’m tired of seeing your mouth open
Eyes raging
Veins bulging
And my heart knowing
My heart knowing
That death is near.
I feel my blood pumping
Everywhere.
I see your anger pumping
Everywhere
And I see my death
Coming near.
It’s a different kind of death,
Murdered by words.
I don’t get a funeral
A memorial service
A ceremony in memory of.
Most of the time
It’s not recognized at all.
I continue my mechanics
Pretend I am not a walking corpse
I pretend
That a ghost has not possessed my body.
I pretend
That I am not dead.
And I am a very good pretender
Because no one ever notices
When I die.




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SecretToTheInside said...
Nov. 30, 2010 at 8:18 pm:
Heart Moving!!!!
 
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SecretToTheInside said...
Nov. 30, 2010 at 7:58 pm:
OMG i have read a few of your pieces and your like the best writer out there. you better be a writter when you get older because it will be a shame if you dont
 
thewriteidea This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Dec. 1, 2010 at 12:06 am :
Thanks so much -- you really made my day.
 
SecretToTheInside replied...
Dec. 1, 2010 at 2:05 pm :

so are you going to become a writer?

 

 
thewriteidea This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Dec. 1, 2010 at 7:43 pm :
that's the plan! actually, i want to be a journalist
 
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Susie M. said...
Oct. 9, 2010 at 7:31 pm:
this was fabulous! a lot of your poems when i try to praise them, it just turns into a rant about how much i love them and the intense meaning behind them. all i'm gonna say is another amazing poem(:
 
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A shy dove J. said...
Oct. 7, 2010 at 9:25 am:
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! such a great piece of work. This is so close to reality.
 
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wind.and.rain.again said...
Aug. 24, 2010 at 2:50 pm:
i can relate to this poem and i bet a lot of other people can too. it encompasses that whole feeling of being hurt emotionally but having to act as if you're just fine. great poem!
 
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Brian_Lambert said...
Jun. 3, 2010 at 7:56 pm:
I see where you get the idea of not being noticed, but as i was reading this i couldn't help but think verbal abuse of some sort... Maybe it's just me, but IDK.....  This is a really great peice and you are a really great writer :)
 
thewriteidea This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Jun. 3, 2010 at 8:49 pm :
yeah, the verbal abuse was also on my mind when i wrote this. thank you for being such a kind reviewer!
 
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