High expectations

i have faith in you
in broken english she tries
i know faith in you
through broken teeth as she cries

you are my only hope
so I try the black and white keys
so I try the plastic strings
read the books about cardio and meninges
you are my only hope
and her dreams fly away

shame in my future
endless dreams stopped
in order to refocus
evaluate my choices
does she know I love writing?
no
there
is
only
shame in my future.

Me. I.
I decide for myself.
Her cries are there
But they distance
as I write another word to the sentence.
Me. I.

There is no shame in my future.