Nothing beats a lie

I'm hiding all these secrets
I'm living all my regrets
it's dark
damp
I'm all alone
silent
hurt
and cold as stone
tired of keeping these thoughts inside
I smile
I laugh
but a part of me has died
I'm crying
I'm lying
my personality is dying
I'm wilting and withering away
each day
I wish I was gone
long gone
away from here
the innocence lost
will shed no tear
I'll scream
I'll shout
because on the inside it's what I'm all about
but on the outside
I shut up and don't say a word
'cause I don't know
what will be heard
I don't cry because my faith is shakin'
I cry because I'm sick of fakin'
that everything is okay
it's cool
I'm all good
when the pothead kids are in my neighborhood
when I'm the last one not drunk
not high
when I'm the last one not sayin' good bye
to my future
my life
this is not alright
I'm done with this
but I have nowhere to be
I'm out of place
like a runner who can't see
it breaks my heart
to see kids this young
throw away somethin'
that's just begun
they say each generation
gets worse and blames us
but did they ever stop to think
who raised us?