trust in fear

deeply rooted mistrust
hurt and fear, a silent bleeding
wondering why my heart feels like it will bust
a tiny ball of pain, full of whimpering cries

numbness running through my veins
so shocked, so hurt
so betrayed
how could I not see that it was all just a game?

I believed you when you told me why
now I cant believe it was a lie.
I cant, but I will
because I must

its plain and right in front of my eyes
you changed your mind
and I found out
why couldn't you just humor me?

and instead of letting me live with that lie
you should have used me
what good did postponing my pain do?
I'm still hurt


and whats worse, my unfailing predictions of betrayal
failed me once again
my eyes were closed because i thought you were good
but how wrong i was, because no one is.