Flowers in my fall
Sunshine in my night
I believed was what you were
Until it all went off right

We’re crashing and burning
Sinking and drowning
No such thing as friendship between us
Because you’re pushing me away
You don’t ever smile anymore
At least not my way

I’m not asking for love
Not asking for forgiveness
To me this is strictly just business
Don’t leave me tonight and come back to me tomorrow
Because you're the one leaving me in pain and sorrow
In guilt and in fault
Leaving me feeling like a book with no cover
As if in the future, like a car with no hover

Never said I stopped loving you
Never said I didn’t care
But you're losing yourself
Something to watch, I cannot bear
So why do you ignore me, if you say you love me?
Why do you leave me in pain if you say without me you’d go insane?
Why do you act as if you don’t care if all we ever did was our affection share?
Why leave me in tears with broken dreams, instead of choosing me and playing on the same teams?

Never said I stopped loving you
And yes, neither did you
So then why distict me
When all I ever did was love you?
Care for you?
Want and need you?
Even desire you?

Yes, I'm feeling sad and blue
But I'm not blaming it on you
Because not being able to forget your love is my fault
My doing or undoing
Like taking a jump in the Olympics but missing the vault
I'm slamming face first into the ground with nothing to catch me
To save me
To hold me
To kiss and caress me

How is it possible to still feel such emotions if this relation ship has had no motion?
No collaboration?
No expectations?
Lost all its limitations?

Yet nothing stands in my way
No wall, border, fence, or gate
From reaching you
Touching you
Feeling you
Nothing stands in my way

Nothing except you
Calling me over just to knock me back
Making me feel like I'm the one holding the lack
Or the want
The desire
That of which is setting my soul on fire

But you're raining on me
Thunder and all
Making my days dark and my night hell
You're a completely different person
Collaborating yourself into a shell
Running away from what I know you want to keep
Because of that heartfelt feeling so deep

But all in all experience is needed
And for my future I am now seeded
Ready for what to expect in a man
A guy
A boy
A jerk

That’s what you are
A jerk
One with no feeling
With no ability to be sentimental, kind, or caring
Worrying not even for yourself or at least trying

You upset me
You stress me
But you’ve also empowered me
You opened my eyes
And now I thank you
Because never will I again fall for a fool
One like you
With nothing to portray but the fact you're life is over before it even started

You're not a baby
But you act like one
You're not an adult
Yet you want to be treated like one
Why?
For what reasons?
When you don’t act like one
Think like one
Maybe even deserve to be one?

Flowers in my fall
Sunshine in my night
You lit a fire in my garden
Now everything’s destroyed
You placed a cloud above my head
Now everything is void