Knowing someone isn’t coming back doesn’t mean you stop waiting.
But I don’t want him to be a memory,
I don’t want to just forget him.
But how am I supposed to let go of him?
Of what’s destroying me, when he was the only thing keeping me together?
Sometimes I used to look at you and wonder “how did I get so lucky?”
To have someone that not only took care of my body but my heart and soul as well.
I fell in love with the way you said my name,
the way you fell asleep, your gentle breathing
and the way you would reach for me and pull me closer if I strayed too far.
But you’re gone
And sometimes the only solution is to let go.
No more crying, no more hanging on to something that no longer exists.
Exhale… keep my sanity.