Inside myself I’m numb and cold.
Yet outside, my smile is bold.
Beyond my smile, behind this lie
Against a wall, I sit and sigh.
Before, I believed every word said.
But I learned and now I cry in bed.
In the rain alone I walk
So no one can see, no one can mock
They don’t want to understand or try,
Since to them, you are just a guy.
Though all my tears I pray,
For all this pain to go away.
Like snow that never seems to melt,
Nothing can erase what I felt.
During all the time past,
My pain still seems to last.
After all the silent tears
Amid the old, come new fears.









Below the night stars I lay
Thinking about what I’ll say
As all my friends, near and far
Ask to know just where you are.
Throughout all their questions I’ll look
Until I find that old book.
Out in the sun, around I’ll glance,
Glad I finally have a chance.
Beneath a shady tree I’ll lay,
As my mind begins to drift far away.
Into a place you cannot be,
A place concerning only me.
And there I will stay
Till that coming fateful day
That I will finally see
How I can now be free.